I had difficulties to fall asleep last night , so I end up by not sleeping at all . but finally I fall asleep at 0630 and woke up at 1045 . Goshhh , major headache and im craving for chocolate cream chip from starbucks ! so , anyone ?

Finally girls , it's Friday , thank God . hehe . Im quite happy about it . the Guess sale starting today till Sunday . I can't wait . umm , what else ? and of course pigging out again with cousins at mall while Im still here . Sooner , there's no more Kl day out for me , it's going to be Lendu day out -,- HAHA . I hate the word ; LENDU . it sounds hilarious . damn hilarious . Okay , at least for me it sounds funny . LOL .

And yea , I replied to much comment on Myspace yesterday and now I dont feel like reply ANY . HAHAHA . okay , lame . idk wht else to say . ouh ouh , Ive found my long lost friend Nurul Shafiqah on Myspace . we all grown up now kan ? I still remember our childhood memories . God willing , I'll upload our picts together . wait yea , the scanner currently out of service .

I think Im going to sleep now . Major headache and panadol is out of stock so yeah sleeping pills save me . so nites for me afternoon for you . Ciao .
hello again . it's 0310 in the morn and I still can't sleep . Im fucking frustrated with someone . you know what , I hate this feeling to get real frust over you but I can't help it . sometimes I wonder , how you could be so mean ? and at one time you're sweet , much sweet than cake icing . ihy . i really mean it atm . seeing you on the line makes me feel "eeee BABI ah kau ni" haih . I feel like crying . feed me some ciggas . Im so looking forward to see SHAZREEN again . adik , imy and i think you all i need right now .












How you like that quote ? Ouh okay , lets just ignore . Lets talk about the so called "DOOMS DAY" of mine today .

Previous night ; went to sleep around 1130 and sleep well until I received one phone call from "you know who you are" at 0148 and a message . And I can't reply because lack of credits and that makes me can't sleep till 0300 . wtf . oui , if you happen to read this I would like to tell you this ; You ruined up my beauty sleep ! haha .

This Morning ; I already set my alarm on 0555 but I stop the alarm and continue sleeping till 0633 . and I was like gelabah gile with "extremefuckinlynervous" feeling of mine . haih . whatta hell betul la . but luckily I managed to get there on time :) hehe

On The Way ; I talk non stop with Mia all the way from Padang Jawa to Hulu Langat . We talked about ehhmmmm ehhmmmmmmmm :D HAHA . all censored lah nnt Mia marah -,-

Hulu Langat ; Im the first one ! uishhhhh wth ! wth ! I dont want to come first for this lah :( and Mia is the 2nd one . lucky her -,- but Ive got a man tester which is so damn cool :) hehehe .

In The Car ; It's all good at first eventho im a bit NERVOUS . okay , Im lying . not a bit but WHOLE LOTS NERVOUS . So , I start the engine with "Bismillahirahmanirahim" :) I must admit that Im doing much good this time and my tester is nice :) *wink wink* but it turn out to be a real DOOMS DAY when Im almost terbabas time nak masuk simpang and immediately change to gear one and terus belok . And I say sorry to the tester and he was like "awak dh ckp sorry , awak tau lah kesalahan awak ni , ni dah kire fail ni " and I was like "ala encik , saye tak perasan lah" and he was like "haa , ni kejap lgi mesti enjin mati ni , mandatori ni" and betul betul engine mati . MACAM HARAM je -,- and I was like immediately tarik hand break and terus begging gile gile tester tu . hahaha . You dont have to know wht I say to him lah . but I was CRYING . to yang the best part nye -,- heehehe . and that tester was like "haihh , yelah2 , dah jalan cepat" and I was like "umm okay encik" HAHA . and still crying weyh *so much DRAMAQUEEN lah* and Im doing just good after that :) I will never forget that tester lah . heheehe :D ily ily ily for making me pass eventho 16/20 :D ILYSDFM <3 ouh yeah forgot to mention about Im Yours . hehe . Im a happy driver while listening to Jason Mraz's . guess the tester like his song too la cause die pasang kuat2 lagu Im Yours tu :D hehe .

After that ; beofre I left , idk brpe bnyk terima kasih la i said to the tester :D hehe . and turun je suddenly I heard ppl saying "ni mesti rasuah , tu yg lulus" and I was like "WHATTHEFUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK" hell nooooooo ! my tears saved me :') hehehe . that's our weapon girls ! cry , begging as much you can . malu x malu , janji pass ! hehe . then I hv to wait around 3 hrs something with Mia , Kak Kavitha and new friend named Qistina :) she's a chinese girl from Monash University Sunway and she's 22 . and we had fun of course cause 4 of we PASS ! God , I can't describe my feeling at that moment . It feels GREAT . SO DAMN GREAT .

okay dah ciao . im sleepy -,- nites love . xx
I think it's still not too late for me to talk about Mother's Day eventho my mum wasn't around last weekend and we're going to celeb it next week together with Uncle Rafik and Uncle Bad birthday :)

Okay mum , this is especially for you . back in 2008 , I just describe the days we've been through together , but this time make it deeper , make it more emotional :') ILOVEYOU , I really do .

"Happy Mother's Day to the greatest mum in the world which is YOU =) may you live longer so that you can shower us with lots of love that you have . Just remember , no matter what happen , I'll always by your side and support from behind . I love you more than you can ever imagine =) xoxoxoxoxo" - I know you received this earlier , but lets get deeper ibu :')


Ain't a woman alive that can take my mum place ,
I finally understand ,
for a woman it ain't easy trying to raise a young lady like me .

Cause when I was down you was there for me ,
And never left me alone because you cared for me ,
I reminisce ,
cause through the drama ,
I can always depend on you ,
And when it seems that I'm hopeless ,
You say the words that can get me back in focus .

When I was sick as a little kid ,
To keep me happy there's no limit to the things you did ,
And all my childhood memories ,
Are full of all the sweet things you did for me ,
And even though I act crazy ,
I gotta thank God that you made me .

There are no words that can express how I feel ,
You never kept a secret, always stayed real ,
And I appreciate, how you raised me ,
And all the extra love that you gave me .

There's no way I can pay you back ,
But the plan is to show you that I understand .
I dont know whether you read this ,
I wish you will know it one day ,
I really mean those words Ibu ,
you're the Queen of My Heart ,
forever & always I promise you this :)

sincerely ,
Your Beloved First Child - Salsabella :)
Girl says ; i noe dis 1 guy. i belum jmp die lg. but then, he rely sweet and funny. dats makes me attract to him. then 1 day, he said dat he wna kiss me. and i said y izit so rush? we jz fren. then, i beranikan dri tny die wether he had sex b4. he said no. jz ringan2. n i said ok. i dunno y all of sudden he said that i'm too alim and he's bad for me. is dat an excuses or wut. the thing is i oredy like him... hmm. babe, i slalu kne cani in relationship. eventhou bru nk knl. sumtimes jd takut nk gv anybody or myself a chance to get to new people. wut do think? btw, die da stat lost contact from me lasnite. i was cried like hell... :(



Bella says ; i see . if i were you , i will immediately left this fellow . when a guy start to talk about sex in relationships , that's a total turn off . he's a jerk act . u know wht , in relationships , there's not always about sex , kissing or watsoeva . if u really really really already fall for him , think again . does it worth it ? idts babe . just let him be . or wht u can do is , try to make him understand . i know , it's hard . but at least you try . and tell him u're not like other girls who willing to give everything to guys . he'll understand ;) tunjuk sikit yg u ni mahal . tak mcm minah2 kat luar tu . haha . think babe . just dont go for it eventho he's asking n seducing you ;) i know , im younger than you and i know tht you shld understand better , but this is just my opinion ;) cheers .


Girl says ; u noe wut babe. u xcely ryte.. i feel so stupid. he's like expecting me to give him more than i can. means dat sex. girl, eventhou u younger than me but now it shows that u mature enuf. which is good. look at me. always been crap by any guy. i dun feel confident anymore to get to noe anyone esp guys. did u noe that sumtimes u hav those feelings that u want sumone that u can feel secure, sharing and loving. everytime when i really gv them a chance there's always stumble or break down in the middle of the process of knowing each otha. hmm. thanks babe. i appriciate it. ;)


Im aware that Im not okay lately . Im so miserable eventhough some might not noticed it . I try many ways to keep things out of my mind . I have keep the distance away from few people just to make things better , but I dont think it works . really . Im so fucked up at this moment . I just dont know what to do . I need lots of ciggas . I need sleeping pills . I need alcohol , okay not gonna happened . I need someone . someone who willing to share this shits with me . so , ANYONE ? I feel like crying , eh wait no , I feel like slapping somebody . eh wait Ive better idea , why don't I just comitte suicide ? ouh yeah , problem solved .