What is the most often question you get everytime people see you ? Well as for me , I always got these kind of questions :) Lets go through it .

Okay , I've been receiving this since Myspace time back in 05 . I get tired of this . seriously . sometimes I just let it be , malas nak layan . Yes people , I am MALAY but with a mix blood of Pakistani from my mum . but basically I'm still consider myself as Malay because I love durian , I eat sambal belacan , tempe and a greatest fan on ikan keli goreng sambal cili padi . HAHA tetiba XD

I always get this question during Ramadhan or Aidilfitri time cause I updated my status about where I break my fast at , get so excited about Raya . and they were like "Are you Muslim ?" , "Celebrating Hari Raya ?" Ouh gosh ! agak2 ah kan . I am Muslim , eventhough I'm not a perfect Muslimah but I am proudly say that I'm Muslim :)

Recently there is one guy in FB chat told me this after I replied "no lah" to him . and he was like "boleh pun cakap Melayu , ingat kan you org German tadi" HOHOHO . okay I get it if he get confused whether I'm Malay or not , but why he thought that I was Germany ? why not Arabican ? Italian ? Pakistan ? or even Spain ? HAHAHA . YES ! I'm good at speaking and writing and not to forget cursing in Malay ! hehe . In fact , Malay is my first language k . Saya bukan nya tak reti cakap bahasa Melayu , tapi awak yang start conversation in English , so apa boleh saya buat , saya pun melayan jelah dalam English , then awak nak cakap saya bajet mat salleh . Awak , tolong get a life okay ? :)

That is the 3 top questions yang I always get for people who don't know me . bagi yg dah kenal pulak , they always take advantages of this . There is one time during Ramadhan and we're on period , then she asked me to buy coffee for her at Starbucks , and I was like "fuck ah , nnt kantoi susah" and she was like "ala die x prasan pnye , kau speaking la ngan die , jgn cakap melayu" and I did and the waiter tak perasan lgsg yg I'm actually Perempuan Melayu Terakhir . HAHA jahat kan ? -.-

Then , there is one time when I walked in shopping complex with mum then I was about to try the perfume , then the promoter keep talking to me in not to mention broken English padahal die Melayu , ckp jelah Melayu kan dgn I . then suddenly she asked me where I'm from , and I was like , haha Malaysia lah mane lagi . and she laughed while saying "ouh Melayu ke ?" LOL !

Okay last memory yg I can recall is there is one time when I was sitting at the chair provided in the mall at KLCC and there's bunch of guys yg melepak right beside me . and that time I'm wearing black skirt with black top , senang cite semua black la , and ade one guy tu ckp "ramai betul orang Arab hari ni" and kawan die pulak ckp "Arab sebelah ni sorang je , mane pak Arab nye ?" and they were laughing like hell . and I was like sabar kau , jap lg aku ckp Melayu padan muka kau . and yes I did . Ishqa came to me , and I ckp "Ishqa , ibu mane ? Bella dh lame tunggu ni" and terus blah dr situ -.-

But whatever it is , I AM STILL MALAY lahhhhhh :D

Ouh wow . It's funny when someone out of nowhere suddenly nak serang you . And I was like "baby baby baby ohhhhhh" eh no , I was like "eh fuck off , I'm not talking bout your boyf bloody bitch" . Jangan la cepat sangat terasa or perasan or berperasaan sangat . Blog is just a place to express my feelings , emotions , to speak my mind and to write whatever I want .

Well , as long as I don't talk about politics here , I guess I'm safe . LOL .

And I'm being myself with what I'm expressing .

That's the real feelings of mine when I write about something . and yes , I do curse , ALOT . People will get used to it , including "you" if you're happen to be people lah kan .

Ouh , it's 4.50 in the morn and I still have my make up on from the day . HAHA . too lazy to take it off . and I'm darn sleepy . okay only now I feel the sleepy-ness when everyone is about to wake up .

It's 3 in the morn , and I came across Jehan's notes on Facebook talking about this girl named Bee John which terribly deals with English language . Which school did she go again ? HAHA . okay enough Bella . I was laughing my ass off over this girl . At least , real entertainment at 3 am . Nice . Thanks Bee John yaw !

It reminds me of my past . seriously . got in fight with TQD . gosh , good old times weh :P I don't want to bring this up , but what's the point , really ? You don't even know me , never meet me before and how come you got me into fight with A , SR , D , HH ? You involved all the Tengku(if they happen to be the real Tengku la :P) and till your cousin is talking behind my back to my best friend , haha no life apparently . And what you get in the end ? N O T H I N G ! Instead , I'm having fun kutuk-ing you with Jazz at Myspace back then . haha so much fun weh . If only I could print screen the conversation . But still , I believe things happen for reason . And see who I am now ? and who you are now ? LOTS OF DIFFERENT kan ? You and your shallow minded not to mention terrible English with bad grammar still standing there with nowhere to go . Get a life !

Another fight I get into is with Mim . I have no idea why we got into fight . She is Shaz's friend indeed . Whose to blame ? but thank God it didn't last . We are friends now . I'm sorry babe , I was judge a book by it's cover before , but no more . I know real you now :)

College life . nuff said . They were my bestfriends but in the end they're the backstab bitches . best kan ? These typical narrow minded Malay girls happen to be real busybody with what am I doing . Depan2 cakap no hal , belakang kutuk bukan main . hamboi . jaga kain sendiri boleh kak ? Kain sendiri tersingkap x perasan eh ? Nyampah . sumpah . they were like "eh kau tau x Bella tue ....." , "Bella tu kan semalam......" and watsoeva pasal Bella . aku penat lah nak jadi popular weh . What goes around comes around aite . It's just not your time yet . Have fun waiting .

And recently , the real fight between me and D . eh wait , we didn't fight , we didn't argue , we didn't hit each other , so what were we ? Ouh yeah , it was her . the BACKSTABBER . You've no idea how much I love you , believe with everything you said , I trust you but what I've got in return ? Cheap talks ? Slander ? Lies ? I don't give a damn yeah . You already gone . I've erased you in my mind , heart and soul . Honestly , I did :) I know we've got hundreds mutual friends on Facebook , but please could you tell your friends to get a life too ? And stop asking me about what happened ? or stop talking about yourself to me ? For God's sake I don't care and I don't give a damn aite ? So please , if you happen to come across my holy blog please tell your friends about it . Thanks .

In conclusion , the haters do exist and they'll never leave us behind . Think positive is the best way . I always imagine myself as Paris Hilton . She have bunches of haters , but she deals with it in professional way . In the end , there is still bunches of lovers . Kan ? Hey , people won't talk forever & if they do , that's cool cause it's only making us FAMOUS . tak ke gitu ? :P

Dearest cousin , you are missed by me . ain't no lies about it . serious shit aku rindu sangat kat kau . dah , kuar dr "hell" tu skang . now . ish . I guess I'm not the only one who missing you like crazy here . Your sibs do and of course la your parents too . And my mum , nani , masipah . semua orang pun rindu kat kau lah . haish . Eh , wait . We don't even say proper goodbye kan ? :'( Ni yang rasa nak nanges ni . sob sob . tsk tsk . uwaa uwaa . see ? macam bunyik nangis dah ni .

So , this entry is just for you Farah Syaika Disa Mohd. Rafik ! I'll be going to miss you and guess lepas ni we will rarely meet cause kau kat Matriks N9 and aku kat Segamat . time cuti pun tak same . but no worries , since I'm home ni boleh lah every week aku datang melawat kau ^^ HAHA .

It feels different without you here tho . I've no one to gossip with , no one to argue with , no one to drive me around the town tengok abang cina hot tuh , no one to sleep with and no one to make jokes with :( There's only Adik & Oni left . and they're underage , S A D L Y .

Syaika , balik cepat tau . nak celebrate birthday Fufu nnt , balik k ? okay ? okay ? rindu sangat .

Aku rasa mcm nak tido bilik kau tau , but then tak tahan tgk "mamat mamat hot" tgk aku tgh tido . A W W W W . haha . you know what I mean kan .

Olla weekend , I've been waiting for you tau ! sayang , finally you dtg pun . I love you love you ! muah muahhhx ! okay . stop it . gila gay .

ADA ke ?

haha no comment .

Peeps , I'm on H O L S now . officially on :) So , since I'm already H O M E for about 2 months ni , please please I'm begging you , PLEASE take me out ! I don't want to be stuck at home with Nani watching Hindustan 24/7 , Yasmine yang mulut becok memanjang and Ashiq yg jerang melekat kat rumah . so please yeah ? Amm , you promised me oledi . don't forget forget to belanja me shisha at Carlos this Friday nite ouh . Yanie , you also already promise me kan ? Our girls date on Sat ? hah . datang jemput di rumah ye sayang :) And of course the only one Mia , our date next week jgn buat buat lupa ye makcik ? I miss you like crazy dah ni ! Lagi ? ouh yeah , Syaika is off to N9 for matrikulasi (skema sikit) on 10th May ! grr . bitch , aku baru balik , kau dah nak blah eh ? ape cer ? mcm mane nak dating ? nak sleepover ? nak manje manje ? mcm mane ? ottogeyh ?! touching :(

My first night home . sleep at 9 , woke up at 1 due to the most annoying badass F L U ! grr . tak pasal2 terpakse online . turun bawah . makan . then makan ubat . then tengok tv . eh eh , citer best at 4am kat ABO . kene stay up sebab nak tengok . salah siape ? salah SELESEMA ! grr . kesian ibu x boleh tido sebab bunyi bunyian yang mmg menjengkelkan datang dr hidung yang x berapa nak mancung ni ^^

Eh talking about Ibu , Mother's Day dah dekat sangat dah ni . What's for this year ? I'll make sure the celebration is lebih hangat drpd biasa . cehwah . Ibu , sarang-hae <3